It would be easy to look around and wonder why we have to deal with infertility. There are parents of children they don't want (or at least act like they don't) and teenagers getting pregnant. We do what we are 'supposed to do' - we go to church, pray, and have even given our lives to full-time ministry. Yet, the one thing that seems to happen repeatedly; something that is natural to all creation, doesn't happen for us. We can cry out, 'Why us?!' Why is this happening to us? For a moment, we did. Then, we flipped the script and asked, 'Why not us?' We can use this time in our lives to learn, to help, and to grow. We are excited that we get to deal with something this difficult because it is clearly a part of His plan for us. I find no comfort in any other explanation for our infertility except to say that God is in control and we are not. We rest completely in Him and trust that when all is said and done and our child is sleeping in his/her bed, we will thank God for what we have. We will be blessed through it all and in light of this blessing, we will again ask, 'Why us?'
So as some of you know and others of you don't know, Josh and I are starting the adoption process. We decided to start this blog so that our friends and family could keep up with us throughout the journey. Our prayer as we go through this journey is that first and foremost we see God working more and more each day and that the people in our lives see God. To catch everyone up, this decision did not come instantly nor did it come without some struggle and pain. We have been trying to have a family for five years now. We thought that we would have a family as soon as Josh graduated from seminary and then after we had a few biological children we would adopt a child. But little did we know those were our plans not God's plan. Through the past five years we have struggled, prayed, cried, tried some fertility treatments, and in the end no baby Hornbaker. Over the past year, through much prayer the Lord has guided us toward adoption. That in of itself was quite a process. One minute...
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